Hey loves! I hope all of you had a great week and are spending your labor day weekend doing something relaxing or adventerous. 🙂 I’m in the NC mountains this weekend with my husband for family time. We were overjoyed when we found out how splendid the weather was supposed to be (high 70’s… #heaven). A much welcomed change to the humid summer heat that has fogged up my sunglasses upon leaving my house every morning for the past 2 months. I will be welcoming fall with open arms!
But now to the meat and potatoes of this post. 🙂 I wanted to shed a little light on my competition life that brings out the most resilient and competitive version of Elyse. It is extreme, it is hard, it is flat out inconveniencing at times… but I love it. I love the challenge I’m presented with whenever I commit to a competition months in advance. When I start my competition prep, it’s like there is a mountain in front of me, and I have to plow through all the mud and steepness and fatigue and pull myself up at the top to enjoy the view. It is hard but it is worth it.
When I decide to do something, I only do it 100% with the goal being to be a contender for the top. My placing doesn’t determine my worth but I do compete with the motivation to win, not just to step on stage and mark something off of my bucket list. I want to acheive the highest possible spot the sport has to offer so I’m after it with determination and persistence.
I placed very low my last competition–second to last call outs at Junior USAs. Which basically means from a judging standpoint I didn’t even exist up there…there were 34 competitors in my height class and I placed beyond 15th. Every competitor thereafter is considered 16th place. I had worked toward this competition for 14 weeks. I gave it my all even with the crazy work schedule I had. But it wasn’t good enough.
I’ll tell you something about what happened to me though during those minutes on stage when my number wasn’t called out time after time after time. As soon as second call outs were announced and I stood there behind a sea of girls that kept moving to center stage, my mind INSTANTLY started thinking about my next competition. I would not let this happen again. I would be more disciplined in my off season, train harder, and there will be no question at my next competition that I belong on a national stage.
With every failure there is an opportunity. I most certainly failed– doesn’t determine my worth as a person or athlete at all but it did mean I wasn’t good enough for a top 5 spot. There were girls that deserved it more than I, they had better physiques, maybe had more time to devote. The list goes on and I could have made excuses and felt sorry for myself. But that isn’t in my nature– as soon as failure was apparent I was already mapping out my next plan to succeed… on stage! I still can’t beleive I was processing all of that through the nerves and dissapointment. But it happened. I was up there thinking “I’ve got to get off this stage and talk with my coach about my next move”.
I will go into details about training and macros and all of that fun stuff in the next few weeks, but I wanted to preface all of that information with a peek into the “why” I’m doing what I’m doing. By nature, I’m not spontaneous and happy-go-lucky. I like a plan, I like structure, and I like setting goals. So this sport fits my mold and challenges me to kick my organization, time management, and meal planning up a notch. I know it’s temporary and for a purpose so the focus required is not difficult for me personally. As soon as the show is over I have no trouble making adjustments to get back to a normal body fat percentage and gaining 5 to 10 pounds. Health and growth become my new focus and my post show goals are aligned and set accordingly.
To correlate this with every day life– success comes to those who aren’t afraid to fail. Failures can lead us to higher places and light fires within us. I’m going to wrap up this post with a quote I read in a book recently that has really spoken to me and encouraged me. It reads: “The arrow that hits the bullseye is the result of 100 misses”. Dwell on that and think about how it may apply to your pursuits. ❤